Because it ends...

Wow! this is the homework i really like. We had to make a monologue for Simoun after knowing that Maria Clara died. I shall post it here.

“Ako’y bigo! Lahat ng aking mga pinagplaplano ng labing tatlong taon, nasayang! Anong halaga ng pagiging pinakamayamang tao sa buong Pilipinas kung ang aking minamahal na si Maria Clara ay namatay na! Hindi ko matatangap na namatay na ang aking minamahal! Ngunit, wala na akong magagawa. Wala na siya. Wala na ang aking natitirang kaligayahan ko sa impyernong ito!

Hindi ko na maibabalik ang mga panahon na siya ay nasa aking mga kamay. Ang mga panahon, na magkasama kami ay noo’y nagdadala ng ligaya at kasiglahan ayngayo’y mga alaala lamang. Mga alaala na kusang isang tinik sa aking dibdib na hindi matanggal. Sabi nila na lahat ng mga sugat, napapagaling ng oras. Ngunit sa pagisip ko palang sa mga alaalang ito parang akong namamatay isang daang beses paulit ulit. Mabigat ang aking puso’y na hindi ka kailanma’y mararamdaman muli ang iyong pagmamahal. Mga kamay na hindi na mahahawakan ang iyong mga palad at mahaplos ang iyong pisngi. Wala na! Wala na akong makikitang iba pang babaeng mas hihigit pa sayo. Walang babae ang maipapalit ko sayo! Ikaw lamang ang laman ng aking puso. Ngunit ikaw ay wala na!

Siguro, may naibunga nga ang mga araw mo sa kumbento. Siguro ikaw ay kasama na ngayon ng Panginoon sa kanyang palasyo. Ngunit ako’y nandito, nasa impyernong mundong ito. Puno ng mga buwaya at mga immoral na tao. Mga taong dahilan ng iyong kasawian at ng aking pagluluksa. Sila dapat ang dapat magbayad! Hindi ikaw! Ikaw, na walang bahid ng kasamaan, ang nagbayad sa mga kasalanan ng mga prayleng walang ginawa kundi pahirapan ang mga ating kababyan. Ang mga Prayleng hipokrito at mga makasarili. Sila dapat ang magbayad! Sila! Kaya ikaw ay aking ipaghihiganti! Hindi ko hahayaang mapunta sa bulag na katarungan ang iyong pagkamatay. Hindi ko iyong isasawalang bahala! Magbabayad sila!”

A Fork in the Road

Someone made me realize, today, that what i was doing was wrong. Well, I kinda think so.

But it kinda hurts my pride but its just pride. I really think I don't have healthy relationships with some people. So, I really think i need to change my ways. But its going to be a long process. I can't do it alone. I can't really just begin suddenly. No matter how hard I try, alone can't change myself. I have to have God's help. I also think my relationship with God has withered. I think its a really good time to change my ways. But its also hard if your the only one who is going through this thing. Its really going to be a long hard journey. But I can do it. I can do it! With God, anything is possible.

I will be changed! I may have strayed away but I'm going back. back to square one.

Okay! I was so happy during soc sci, because I have good group mates. Algebra was awesome! I got a 27/25 in the Long Test. Bio was kinda depressing because of the results of my periodical test. Physics was really sad because my grade went down. so yeah. Its a balanced day still with a lot of high school drama, so Yeah

Don't Play With Me Fate!

I'm kinda messed up right now. I don't really know. But I don't really know how this will go but i just hate it when fate plays and toys with you. Or just maybe fate isn't playing with you. Someone else is. *sigh*

I hope I won't be as confused. I don't really know right now if i still like her or not. If i have a chance or not. Or if she is worth it or not.

PLEASE DON'T PLAY WITH ME. I'm weary and tired. I need some rest. (but this f*cking HW won't do itself) haay...

Hope this will be a fun week.

Hope that everything might be clear to me this week.

But nothing will happen if i just wish.

I have to be a man! I learned something today at church. Since it was the OPM 2 series, it talked about Filipino mind sets. Today, the "Machonurin" mindset was talked about.

The main question was, "what is the mark of a real man?". Does a real man have to be "Macho" have to dominate the family with an iron hand? NO! Does a man have to give in to the voice of his wife? NO! A real man, is someone who takes full responsibility of what he does. He doesn't try to avoid responsibility but take FULL responsibility. THAT is the mark of a real man!

Whuutz?

Okay so haven't really been dedicated to updating this blog for about a month or so.

So much has been happening so fast and my internet connection can't keep up with

the pace of high school drama and stress. So yeah here is my first real post in a while.

So now I have a facial scar. It will be above my eye but below my eyebrow. Yeah! Awesome! I'll look manlier! hahaha! I wasn't really scared about the fact that blood came out of the area above my eye. In my head I was like,

"OH COOL BLOOD FROM MY EYE! PICTURE MUNA!.... OF EFF BLOOD! GOTTA GO TO THE CLINIC."

Yeah that was kinda awesome but it still hurts. haha so yeah!

BV -_-

Things that make me BV the past weeks

1. there are people that makes themselves feel like kings or queens and as if i'm like their servant because i'm the class president

2. there are people who are really ungrateful fro everything i do.

3. there are people who don't listen or just don't think at all.

4. there are people who you just can't punch in the face.

FML

rant post ko lang ito so walang kwenta masyado...

Pwede mo nalang namana akong sabihan na ayaw mo diba? kesa maasahin mo ako sa wala!

napapagod din ako. nasasaktan pa. ano ba gusto mo? buong buhay humabaol ako sayo kada oras na umiwas ka, hindi ako pansinin at ituring walang kwneta?

ano ba gusto mo?

maalas pa sa minsan gusto ko na nga mag move on nalang kung mas mabuti yun. KASI SABIHIN MO NALANG SANA DIBA? PWEDE MO NAMAN AKO KAUSAPIN. Nakakabwiset na eh. Para na akong tanga. Tawa ng tawa para sa wala. kunwari akong masaya kahit sa loob na lulunod na sa putik. TAO AKO! MAY MATA AT UTAK AKO! HELLO KUNG NGAYON MO LANG NALAMAN!

I don't want to give up...

I don't really know what your thinking now after a week of barely talking.
I really don't know what you think about me.
What i am really pissed about is the fact that you avoid me, the fact that you don't look at me when I'm talking to you the fact that you don't even reply if i ask you something.
I don't know what to think about you right now. A part of me is really angry and pissed off but another part of me still likes you. I don't really know. But I don't want to talk to you for a while unless you talk to me. I am still a person that has feelings, has a brain, has eyes. I'm sorry if i hurt you but this is all that goes to my head every time you do what you do.

Day 1: 10 things you want to say to ten different people right now.

I shall do this also because I am bored =))

1. Mas mataas nga final grade mo sa math1, sino naman mas mataas na GWA? :P =))

2. I miss your hugs :-<

3. I trust you that you won’t mistreat her or hurt her if ever you both gets into a relationship ;) :-bd

4. Okay lang yan! But don’t let yourself be distracted with it! :D

5. Magbabawas ako sa text kaya ayaw ko mag unli!

6. This person likes you! pero she wont admit it! =)))))))))

7. Sometimes my mood depends on the chance that if you reply to me or not! And you would be suprised if you knew who you are! :>

8. BOOKS BEFORE BOYS AH! =)))))))

9. Magsisipag na ako this quarter! i shall be DL!

10. I don’t expect you to like me back because right now i am clueless. I dont know what you feel or think about me. but at the least i want, is that for us to be close. but its hard for me to even talk to you.. i know i am so lame with the way i talk to you. but at least i have the guts for even trying. Hope you could give me a clue -__- @-)

GRADES!!

So im am posting my grades even if it is not complete:

STILL MISSING: ALGEB, CAD and PEHM

CHEM 1.5 BIO 2 PHYSICS 1.25 GEOM 2 ALGEB 2.25 SOC SCI 1.75 ENSCI 1.25 COMPSCI 1.75 CAD ? ENGLISH 1.5 FILIPINO 1.5 PEHM ? VALED 1.25

Brink of Extinction

Friendships made, friendships end

Friendships pushed to the edge

Some thrive while others die.

Others still in the process

of ending or repeating.

Today I felt so-so. Didn't feel happy but didn't feel sad. I'm not really depressed about the kinda low grades i got but i always think i could do better because i know i can.

I just feel confused about what i feel about certain people. I still think I am not happy with us being like this. Always awkward. Always not talking much. I don't even want us to be awkward but its hard if i'm the only one doing something. I don't know if we will ever be out of this kind of relationship. Maybe just maybe... you'll know how much i have fallen for you... how much i want to be by your side... how much i want you to be happy...

Is this the End?

"And I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing

You were still here..."

I have this song, So Sick by Ne-Yo stuck in my head for the whole week. I have been singing this in my head. I don't know why but maybe because i am just tired of playing games and chasing around. Sometimes I need to sit down and relax for a bit. To just lay down on the green grass and watch the blue sky with white fluffy clouds. But the past week has been a roller coaster of a week. It has always been rain, thunder, and lightning. Not much clear blue skies. Not much smiles. I felt so messed up last week. I can't really say what happened because its personal.

I want answers. Answers to questions I'm afraid to ask. Answers that may hurt someone. Answers that may lead to tears and broken hearts. I don't want to see you sad. I want to see you happy. I don't really know if your feeling the same thing as me. I just want to know. If you would ever like me.Even if I look and act like this I hope "that our hearts are congruent"

I just want you to be happy. But I wouldn't know until you tell me. If I were to end this, wish it would end in a good way.

Bad Day

I wish before this day ends it will get better. After a 3 perios 2 passed 1 failed. 2 are under my worry list.
I can’t stand the rain. Its not because I hate floods, I hate water or anything like that. its becasue you can’t do things you were supposed to do and it adds to my bad day.
Hesitation… please go away because you keep me from being happy.

Everyday I wish I had you by my side. I miss hugs…

Your smile....

It is the Diamonds among crystals.

It is the sun that brightens up my rainy day.

I can't help myself but smile and feel happy.

It makes me realize that you are happy and that you don't feel any kind of dismay and in

knowing that it makes me happy.

It is your most beautiful asset.

You can never look so perfect and I can't be more happier than being that person who sees that perfect person

Someday I want to be the reason why you smile.

I want to put that beautiful smile on your face.

It is something I treasure.

It is something I hold dear that if i wipe that beautiful smile of your face I would regret that day I ever did that.

How simple yet beautiful you are?

How you, the root of my happiness, be someone whom I know?

How can I be even worthy of seeing you smile?

Men aren't supposed to cry...

Men are supposed to be the strong figures in society. Yet these strong figures, are still human that can fall if they are hit on the right places. They are like pillars in a temple. Yes they stand strong and seem immovable but something or someone can still make these pillars breakdown and let everything fall apart. There are more men that tend to hide their emotions from everyone. But they have a point where they can breakdown and cry. Where they have had enough of trying to be numb and let those tears fall down their cheeks.

I feel like breaking down and crying right now. But I really don't know if it is worth crying about.

I feel like I am an outcast. Knowing that you are wasting your time with somebody and ending in a road where you are left alone, thrown aside, ignored, or Avoided it feels like your heart was ripped out of your chest. It is like being thrown into a pit where nobody will help you out.

I don't even want to be like a puzzle piece, where I pretend to be someone I am not just to fit in.
I try to change to be better. Into someone that people won't be afraid to talk to. Into someone that people would smile back when we meet. At least, someone that can make people happy.

I feel like a nuisance to people. I feel like a toy. When brand new, kids play with it alot, yet when there come a new toy they begin to forget that I even exist. But, someday I will leave and no body can stop it. It will come but will you even miss me? That you will miss my company, my laugh, my jokes, or the memories? Whatever it may be, Will you , one day, stop and see that I am not beside you anymore?

Wasting away...

It has been days since my last post for I haven't found anything to talk about or I'm a bit lazy this week. (hehe)

This week is LT week because of many LTs scheduled in this week. Geom, Phycics, Comp sci, and Bio.... good luck to me.

Thursday is the day of rekonnign for us left in the training pool. For thursday is the day where the 7 people will be cut.

This is the first week she knew, and i think it was a bad idea.
Can't think of anything else to say.

Shut up ,Get out and Never Come Back.

I woke up on the wrong side of my bed, half my face wet (with something I don't know).

Didn't have the right appetite for breakfast so i ate anything I saw till I was full.

Felt so lazy yet I finished my geom homework.

Ate lunch. Went to Galle. Brother had a dentist appointment.

Bought new school shoes and shirts( for house meeting on Monday).

Met with my aunt. Bought stuff. Bought dinner. Went to my aunt's house.

Ate dinner( dinner wasn't my type). Went home.

The whole day. Didn't smile much. Been thinking stuff through. Can't help my self but be regretful.

Been thinking of why does she ignore and avoid me? What did this person didn't want me to know what they were talking about? were they talking about me? I think so. Should I even care or take a chance with her?

I don't know. The Internet never cooperated with me. Its like inside I'm saying "what did I do wrong?" "do I deserve this?"

Well, I think I do desevre this. I have been planting seeds of anger upon people. But I don't think those people desevre my trust my respect my loyalty my anything. They did me wrong so why should I care? I should. I shouldn't have sown seeds of anger and hate. Maybe this was the reason... I don't really know.

I just wish I could just talk to them bluntly. I could talk to people anytime. Well, Its not like that.
Its hard for me to talk to people. I don't know how to talk to them. How to have a serious talk. A talk where I could just pour out my heart so they can understand whats in my heart and mind.

I don't like being sad. I don't like the girl in my previous posts. It made me think I can't trust anyone. I don't even care anymore. I don't want to be sad. Most of them don't even see what I see. Think what I think. Feel what I feel. Just one word could change my perspective of someone.

Sometimes I wish I had a heart of stone. Doesn't care. Doesn't love. Doesn't give a damn about others.

My day is complete...

<-- this post in my tumblr made my day!http://staybesideme.tumblr.com/

Sorry...

I feel guilty last night.

I'm SORRY... I didn't really have the right to be mad last night...

A wall is a just a wall...

If there is one thing that can keep me calm right now is hearing something form somebody or keep punching a wall till i hear it say "it hurts"

One time you're on top of the world. Then you were pushed betrayed hurt the now you're falling to a bottomless pit.

Do you know that feeling?

You believed this person then he stabs your back.

You gave him your trust the he just breaks it in front of you.

You taught him everything then he uses your teachings against you.

My never anding fantasy ended in a never ending nightmare

I just felt my heart go down.
Its was just like thinking that you were something yet you were nothing at all.
It was like thinking you had an opportunity that was disguised as a pit where you can never get out.

I even though i felt like this many times before but I never got used to it.
Never got used to the pain, never got used to being the "sub"
Never got used to thinking that there is still hope but it was crushed right in front of me.

I thought... I thought... thats always the problem... I THOUGHT.
I was never sure. I never was sure. I'd rather sleep right now and forget it in the morning but I can't sleep because it will be the only thing I'm going to think about before I sleep.

I HATE IT! ITS B***S***!
I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THIS.
Yet I am always like this. I have a feeling I won't sleep early later. Its hard to accept that you prioritized a person yet that person put you as an option.

Is there really hope in the world?

This day is so... effing annoying. I'll just type and type until everything in my head is let out.

I just don't get it. I know I don't have enough of a reason to be like this.

I had a feeling this would and now I think I it is happening already.

Just the thought of her, makes it even more painful to think that it maybe true that I'm not really that kind of a guy. The guy that could be with her. The guy that can make her happy. It just doesn't even add up. I don't want to think of it anymore.

I just feel forgotten. I just feel that she doesn't even notice me. I feel that she doesn't even care.

Its just that it can never happen the way i thought it would. Its just so hard to think right now.

I don't want to feel like this anymore but it is like an arrow ,no not an arrow, a spear pierced through my heart then go through my back.

I feel betrayed. I feel weak. I feel hopeless.

Its just that everything about her is just perfect. I can't even go a second not thinking of her.

I want to keep putting all my feelings in this post yet at the same time letting out in a scream.

If you would ever read this don't get me wrong its just the feeling I am now. I still don't know if it is really like this. I don't know anymore. I want to vent all this tomorrow during PE or in Basketball. I just need to hit something. I just want something to happen this week, soemthing happy.

I think you won;t even understand anything I wrote here. Even I didn't get anything I wrote.

Words can't say what love can do...

First week of classes but it is still thursday.

My First Impression of 2014... Guys: DAMING MAANGAS! BV! Girls: Hm... I think they are shy? hahah

My First week as a soph was 10^2 more stressful than my first week as a freshie.
Well, its what I should expect for the most demanding year.
And also, still haven't gotten a decent conversation with her this week.
Dangit!

I don't know what to do now... I'm just so bored.

OW by the way, Lakers-Celtics game 4 tomorrow. Go LAKERS!! =))

I'll be here all year so get used to it.

Enrollment. Sectioning. Re-orientation. New classmates.



Tiring. Sucks. Boring. I don't want to say it.



I feel so messed up. I feel like I have a hangover yet I didn't even drink.

I feel so mad at myself for not even trying to speak to her this afternoon.

I can't think of anything to say. Well, at least she looked so pretty. Yeah, and I could just stare into her eyes and be lost. I could just be doing this but I choose not to. I know I have the balls for it. I have the confidence to say it to her. But not now. Not this soon. I'll have to think of what might happen after. I have to put into play what might happen after. I don't want to mess the 1st month of school for her. I just don't. So, I'll not tell her this soon.

I hope when she sees this she might understand whats going through my head.

To put it simply, I like you too much. I can't help myself. So, I am not telling you what I feel. Not yet. I'll only tell you when the best time comes.

boredom does this to you....

Pare1: Pare! whats your biggest fantasy?
Pare2: to be kissed by someone in the rain! Ikaw, pare?
Pare1: to be that someone!
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Wife: ba't ang aga mong umuwi? siguro naghalf day ka ulet no?
Husband: Hindi honey! Sabi daw kasi ni Boss GO TO HELL!

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Pare1: Pare! Nag-away ulet kami ni misis kagabi!
Pare2: Oh? Sinong nanalo?
Pare1: Basta sa huli nakaluhod!
Pare2: Oh? anong sinabi niya?
Pare1: "LUMABAS KA DIYAN SA ILALIM NG KAMA!"

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Pare1: Pare! Bat ka late ?
Pare2: Nilibing pa kasi biyenan ko.
Pare1: Eh! ba't ang dumi ng itsura mo?
Pare2: Naglaban eh!
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Pare1: Pare! Iniwan na ako ni misis! Nakahanap ng iba!
Pare2: Diba mabuti ka naman na asawa?
Pare1: Oo, Pare!
Pare2: Eh, Ba't ka iniwan?
Pare1: Nahuli ako nagbabar...
Pare2: Wala namang bar dito eh!
Pare1: Meron... Gay bar!

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Love hurts...

Love hurts so much... especially when you really feel when your in love.
Its like getting somethign stabbed inside you. As if your heart wants to just fall out. It really hurts when you want her to know that it hurts yet you can't tell her. You don't know what to do, to think, to feel... I don't know anything.

It just hurts so much to know that she likes someone else that might fall for her and that he may know the best secret there is now. HER. I feel so useless and weak when I think about these kinds of stuff. When I try to think of happy thoughts It keeps on going back to her. It justs hurts.

Why can't I tell her?

No! I should not tell her.

I must hide these feelings from her.

I just can't think of anything to do to make me feel happier.

Nobody knows how sad I am right now. Even if i smile, somethimes its just the thought that she is happy... because of another guy...

Te quiero mas de lo que quiero vivir....

I want to learn spanish so bad... because its just sound so romantic.

I want to say "Te quiero" to her... yet she still doesn't even know how much i like her.

I still can't stop thinking about her. Even though I think I don;t really have a chance, I still think she will know that I like her.

I know this sound kinda stupid, but its just that I can't put to words how I feel.

I just feel so lonely, inside and out, when I stop thinking of her and when i think of her i still feel lonely because I know she likes another guy. Who is way better looking than me. Yet I will only stop till my heart stops beating the same rhythm it beats when im with her.

I just can't really put into words how much I can say to her.

Sometime when I see her, I just lose the words in my mind. I never got used being around girls especially the girl I like because I don't know what to talk about.

I don't know what will happen when i say it. I don't know what will i say after they say something. How it will register in thier mind. Is it bad or good. Does it say something about me.
I don't know if they'll even care about what I say. I don't know alot of things about girls. I just know that they are kinda hard to understand.

So, most of the times I just keep my mouth shut and say nothing. Then wasted the chance of talking to her. I just hate my self if that happens.

I just hope I might get used to girls being aroud especially now that I'm already in a co-ed school.

Sometimes, I just need someone who I can talk to about anything. I need someone who I can make them happy. Someone who also can make me happy. Someone who I can make her feel special and she can make me feel special.

I just wish she feels happy when i say that she looks pretty, nice or ... beautiful no matter what she looks like. But she doesn't even know I think that way. She doesn't know I feel lonely.

I'll just wait... and see what happens...

My Imagination Keeps me Alive and Going....

I hate liking someone... because she is the only person I can think of. Non-stop even if i try.

Its going to be harder for me to sleep because I can't make my mind blank.
I can't stop thinking of how pretty she looks like.
How her hair looks great even if its not that fixed.
How she has a pretty smile even with braces.
I just can't stop thinking of her.
How elegant she walks through the halls.
How seeing her smile makes me crazy.
How much I want to make her go out with me to watch a romance movie (for a guy, i like romance movies).
How much I want to hold her gentle hand.
How much I would give up to just stare at her without her noticing... and when I get caught she is also guilty for staring at me.
How much I want to see her Smiling because I made her smile.
How much I could sing her a song.
How much I want to show her that I really really really like her.
How much I want her by my side when I'm sad and i'm beside her when she is sad.
How much I want to run around in the rain with her.
How much I want to make her laugh her silly yet sweet laugh.
How much I want to hug her so tight and never let go.

YET... haven't even tried to be with her for the whole day.. just us...
just us... no one else but us... just me and her.

I just can't control my emotions. I just can't help myself be like this.

I want to let this all burst out because i can't help myself.

I don't know if im sweet or just freaking corny.

Chances...

Do I have to go through this thing again?

Liking a girl then ending up hurt, then Realizing i don't really have a chance or etc.

I don't want to go thought it again.

I won't tell this girl I like her until I want and have to.

I just cant tell her.. especially now that she likes someone else more apealing to her than me. I want to feel, just at least one day, feel needed or special to someone. I am sick and tired of these stuff but i can't help myself being emotional, a helpless romantic and a guy with little chances of being like by a girl with standards.

I don't like this feeling anymore. It makes me feel weak. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want to be rejected. Yet i have to face these things eventually. I can't keep myself from liking someone. I can't help it. I just want to throw it all away. I wish I can throw these but I can't. I don't know what to feel anymore. I don't now anymore.

I need help, I know. I just want someone ,who I have feelings for, tell me just one thing.

"You're special."

Everything is different now...

Everything changes over time, sometimes you get left behind. Your friends in the past seems to ignore you. People change in how they look. Girls that look "so-so" now looks like the envy of many. Guys grow taller.( and I'm not gaining any inches). Enemies become friends. Friends become enemies.

Change is always there. I know that. But I feel so left out. Left behind. No one to turn to. No one beside me. Everyone of them going through me and i ahve to make a decision. Its either I move out of the way or get crushed by the feeling that they don't need you, that they can move on with their lives without me

Should I just leave them be or try to at least talk to them?

Everytime I look at my Twitter or Facebook I just see that they changed and its just I can't talk to them becauseI think I'll be FC. Also, I just think that they'll just ignore me.

Its just that I don't know if they want or at least would enjoy if I said "hi".

I just want you to say...

I'm beggining to get pissed every time I say "hi" "sup?" or "hey" they always say GM?

Its just that I don't GM that much anymore. I'm trying not to anymore. Its just so annoying.
Tell me "you GM alot noon kasi..." or anything like that. SO WHAT? noon yun eh... its just so annoying.

Our hope is not on man...

Election day is today.

Watching the news makes me see the suckish system in the Philippines. My parents didn't get to vote because of the lack of a proper system. My uncle and his family had to wait 4 hours to vote.
That just makes me so irritated and so confused.

Many PCOS machines were malfunctioning. Armed combat in Mindanao.

What the hell!?

Those machines were malfunctioning because it wasn't tested. Most of the congress men and women questioned and didn't want to make the elections electronic because they didn't trust the system though it was 99.9% cheat proof. (except for the buying of votes, etc.) The machines were not tested because it was delayed. If it was not delayed then the machines were tested then there will be not that much problems.

The Armed combat in Mindanao, its just BS. Why can't the people in Mindanao have a peaceful and clean election? Why won't the officials there accept the change in the government and
just stepdown? Why does the Power have to stay within the family? Why should there be killing and violence? THE GOVENMENT IS FOR THE PEOPLE BY THE PEOPLE. Period!

I just hope that the people who are going to be sitting there on top be the rightful one and the people won't put their hopes on a simple man. Because ONLY GOD can make those people move. I hope that instead of hoping on the person up there they would put their hopes on the person above the person up there,God.

Sugar don't let me down...

Okay, I'm blogging while on a sugar rush. hahaha
Sunday is the day tomorrow. Its also the time when I get a Haircut. Tomorrow is the day i say goodbye to my (kinda) long hair and hello to my scalp! WAHAHAHA
(told ya I'm on a sugar rush.)

Hahaha I'm on a sugar rush because I just had a donut and 2 fraps! hahaha

I feel happy todays remenising of stuff about.... safdasdf.

Okay i ahve nothing else to say,

Ow yeah BTW! Suns lead 3-0 against the Spurs and the Cavs lead 2-1 against the C's

Lakers-Jazz and Magic-Hawks tomorrow!

Ten songs I like

So you might get to know me throught the music I listen to so I'll give you a list of ten songs

1. Living on a Prayer by Bon Jovi
2. Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
3. Mad by Ne-yo
4. You Give Love a Bad Name by Bon Jovi
5. Harana by Parokya ni Edgar
6. Replay by IYAZ
7. Skyway Avenue by We the Kings (acoustic version)
8. Hot Air Balloon by Owl City
9. Salt Water Room by Owl City
10. Thunder by Boys Like Girls

take my heart but don'y break it...

How hard is it to move on?

Its hard. Most of the times you thik your over her, but you still see yourself head over heels for her.

I got to move on on my first crush, because it was only a crush. i don't know if really got over my second. i just decided that i don't have any chance with her that time. I dunno. Okay, my Third one I don;'t know. She might read this but ow well, so i wanted to get over her halfway throught my US vacation but it took me about 2 weeks to realize i have to and only be friends and she is cool with that anyway.

Now, I have this problem. I've been like "thinking" about a group of girls. They might be my friends. I won't tell by the way. But at this time, I really wan to talk to them. I just feel happy when I get to talk to them. I don't really like like them but its just i can't stop thinking of them.
I just find them so attractive and I just can't help it. It makes me MAD(the crazy type) and so... stupid!

I can tell them this but it might break our friendship.

Pain, Pain never goes away

Yesterday, I hit my right pinky finger on a rock and got sratches, then in the afternoon got my left pinky jammed. Then today, got my left leg hit the bottom part of our van.

Damn, those minor stuff won't stop me but will affect how ill walk and move my fingers, yet something smaller and less physical can cahnge my attitude about something or someone.

sometimes, just saying something can affect how a person think, feel or understand. Though, it may look like over-reacting but small words can hurt, kill, heal, and encourage a person, depending on what is being said.

So use, your words carefully, because thay can make or break a person's life.

The Untold Secrets...

Recently, I just wanted to start a clean slate. I don't like anyone, no crushes, no feelings, no Nothing.

But its hard to be numb, there are girls there that I... think their pretty, cute or beautiful, but i always think that the will never fall for a guy like me, especially sfasfsd. I always thought that there is always a better guy for her and that she may be happier with that Guy than me.

Sometimes, I daydream about those Girls and ending up being the last guy that they dated then dumped then ending up with the next guy. Like that movie "Good Luck Chuck".

I just hope that there will be the perfect girl for me someday.

The Unseen Feelings

People sometimes think I'm always happy, I'm carefree, and somethimes always hyper.
I'm like that because I need someone who I can trust and talk about stuff, personal stuff. most of the times i laugh out loud because i want to block away the crying I hear inside me. Sometimee, the only reason I'm "hyper" its because I want to forget the problems and insecurities I have. Sometimes I just look happy but inside I'm angry, sad, lonely or depressed. Sometimes, I am really am happy because of the things that happen in a day. I'm happy that at least i have someone to talk to, at least listen. My happiness is sometimes shallow and i tend to laugh about thing that seem to be so plain and ordinary that i laugh like I'm an Idiot. Well, I really want someone by myside so i can talk to and to understand why I'm like this.

ground Zero...

I'm making this blog so I can write anything i need to let out. if you want to read fine, go ahead, but don't judge me by the stuff i write here, I DON'T like that. Judge me only when you get to know me. I don't know how to start this blog so I'll just tell you about my day.

May 5, 2010

Woke up early fro the 3rd straight day at around 7 am. Ate breakfast, then played basketball. I sweat alot that time. I'm trying to lose weight so i have to sweat alot, well good thing im back in the philippines where whatever i do can trigger my sweatglands. so then ate lunch, played pokemon(i know its so kiddy but yeah i played pokemon) ruby, got groudon and beat wallace then got bored, then played outside to get extra weight off. Then took a bath.
Todays schedule was supposed to wait for my dad so we can go to Tri noma to watch Iornman 2 but we left early so we can have time to go around the mall. So at Tri noma we stayed at coffeebean(the stall inside the mall) then waited for my dad to arrive. Thanks for texting( Alyssa, Paula, Sam, and Gan). I got depressed at that point bacause i saw so many couples there and i felt lonely. Got to the movie, it was great, waited for the post credits(thanks for texting me to wait until the end who ever you are) then drove home then made this blog.

that was my day so this is also the end of my first post. bye