I just felt my heart go down.
Its was just like thinking that you were something yet you were nothing at all.
It was like thinking you had an opportunity that was disguised as a pit where you can never get out.
I even though i felt like this many times before but I never got used to it.
Never got used to the pain, never got used to being the "sub"
Never got used to thinking that there is still hope but it was crushed right in front of me.
I thought... I thought... thats always the problem... I THOUGHT.
I was never sure. I never was sure. I'd rather sleep right now and forget it in the morning but I can't sleep because it will be the only thing I'm going to think about before I sleep.
I HATE IT! ITS B***S***!
I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THIS.
Yet I am always like this. I have a feeling I won't sleep early later. Its hard to accept that you prioritized a person yet that person put you as an option.
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