I want to learn spanish so bad... because its just sound so romantic.
I want to say "Te quiero" to her... yet she still doesn't even know how much i like her.
I still can't stop thinking about her. Even though I think I don;t really have a chance, I still think she will know that I like her.
I know this sound kinda stupid, but its just that I can't put to words how I feel.
I just feel so lonely, inside and out, when I stop thinking of her and when i think of her i still feel lonely because I know she likes another guy. Who is way better looking than me. Yet I will only stop till my heart stops beating the same rhythm it beats when im with her.
I just can't really put into words how much I can say to her.
Sometime when I see her, I just lose the words in my mind. I never got used being around girls especially the girl I like because I don't know what to talk about.
I don't know what will happen when i say it. I don't know what will i say after they say something. How it will register in thier mind. Is it bad or good. Does it say something about me.
I don't know if they'll even care about what I say. I don't know alot of things about girls. I just know that they are kinda hard to understand.
So, most of the times I just keep my mouth shut and say nothing. Then wasted the chance of talking to her. I just hate my self if that happens.
I just hope I might get used to girls being aroud especially now that I'm already in a co-ed school.
Sometimes, I just need someone who I can talk to about anything. I need someone who I can make them happy. Someone who also can make me happy. Someone who I can make her feel special and she can make me feel special.
I just wish she feels happy when i say that she looks pretty, nice or ... beautiful no matter what she looks like. But she doesn't even know I think that way. She doesn't know I feel lonely.
I'll just wait... and see what happens...
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