Shut up ,Get out and Never Come Back.

I woke up on the wrong side of my bed, half my face wet (with something I don't know).

Didn't have the right appetite for breakfast so i ate anything I saw till I was full.

Felt so lazy yet I finished my geom homework.

Ate lunch. Went to Galle. Brother had a dentist appointment.

Bought new school shoes and shirts( for house meeting on Monday).

Met with my aunt. Bought stuff. Bought dinner. Went to my aunt's house.

Ate dinner( dinner wasn't my type). Went home.

The whole day. Didn't smile much. Been thinking stuff through. Can't help my self but be regretful.

Been thinking of why does she ignore and avoid me? What did this person didn't want me to know what they were talking about? were they talking about me? I think so. Should I even care or take a chance with her?

I don't know. The Internet never cooperated with me. Its like inside I'm saying "what did I do wrong?" "do I deserve this?"

Well, I think I do desevre this. I have been planting seeds of anger upon people. But I don't think those people desevre my trust my respect my loyalty my anything. They did me wrong so why should I care? I should. I shouldn't have sown seeds of anger and hate. Maybe this was the reason... I don't really know.

I just wish I could just talk to them bluntly. I could talk to people anytime. Well, Its not like that.
Its hard for me to talk to people. I don't know how to talk to them. How to have a serious talk. A talk where I could just pour out my heart so they can understand whats in my heart and mind.

I don't like being sad. I don't like the girl in my previous posts. It made me think I can't trust anyone. I don't even care anymore. I don't want to be sad. Most of them don't even see what I see. Think what I think. Feel what I feel. Just one word could change my perspective of someone.

Sometimes I wish I had a heart of stone. Doesn't care. Doesn't love. Doesn't give a damn about others.